So....we are looking into this door that is open before us. We've thought it was open before, but before we could get there, it closed. We have a foot in it now. It is scary. There are so many unknown things in that door. What will happen? Will we be heartbroken? Will we end up happy?
The path through the door of adoption is such a scary path. We want to have an addition to our family so badly, and we have for years. It would be so easy if babies just appeared, but sometimes they don't. We've looked into adoption for several years, but we've never felt comfortable until now. We finally found some old family friends that work for an adoption agency in Florida, and we are so comfortable with them. After talking to them, we agreed to receive the paperwork. It's scary all over again. I have to do better with my faith!
The day after we talked to Pepper at Embraced by Grace, I received an email with this verse:
"I know the things you do, and I have opened a door for you that no one can close. You have little strength, yet you obeyed my word and did not deny me." Revelation 3:8
When I pray, I ask for open doors. Actually, I ask for one open door, and I ask for ALL of the rest of the doors, windows, cracks, and false paths to be shut and locked and blocked off where I can't even THINK about going the wrong way. Then, I ask God to shove me through that open door! lol There is the door. I see it! I don't know why I am so scared of this open door. I know it isn't supposed to be easy. But I am a Christian, and I should have enough faith to move a mountain! I LOVE GOD! I KNOW He will take care of us! I know "I can do everything through Him who gives me strength." (Phillipians 4:13) If I know this, and I have faith in God, why is this so hard? Why am I so scared?
Even with all of this fear, we are so excited! The thought of adding another child into our family is so exciting, and it outweighs all of the fears. We are so excited!
We started this blog because so many people have so many questions! We wanted a place where we could update all of the information on our adoption for everyone so all of the questions would be answered at one time! We will try our very best to keep this as up to date as possible. This journey through this open door is an emotional one for all three of us. It is hard to talk about sometimes. We don't know what will happen. There will be times that we might be able to post it here, but we might not be able to discuss it. It is so hard!!!! We are so grateful to all of our wonderful friends who pray for us and who care enough about us that they want to know all about our journey. Thank you for checking out our blog and loving us enough to want to stay up to date with what is going on! Thank you for going on our journey with us!!! We're glad it's a BIG open door!!!!!
